2014.

Well its already the 3rd of January and I still haven't had my kiss yet this year. Even though we don't really stay up at midnight anymore but we kissed everyday! I miss him so much! It was so hard to let him get on that bus! I wanted to run and tell him NO! Don't do it! I know its all for the better. Waiting for his call on Wednesday was so horrible. I wasn't guaranteed to get it that day, but I just had a feeling I would get it. Everything reminds me of him. Last night I got a package of  ink that Ryan ordered before he left. It was a cheaper version of what our printer called for and he said it would work. Well I tried to install it yesterday but instead I got black ink all over my right hand and the printer would not recognize the ink or let me bypass it! I was so angry at him and then I was sad because he was not here for me to get mad at or for him to fix it! I rely on him so much! I know I need to be more independent and this is a really good opportunity for that, but it doesn't change the fact that he is my soul mate and I am in this big world without him. I am going to do so many things myself. I am so thankful that this time around I have family because when he deploys we will probably be far away from them. I am glad that I am getting to meet my new family, my Air Force family! They are all so kind and welcoming! I am connecting with so many people! I think that has really been a big help! I am getting all this support through the Air Force WingMOM networking on facebook. On Monday I even got to meet the creator and founder, Lisa! She is amazing! It turns out she even lives right down the street from me! I really hope I get to know her better and maybe when my journey is over I can help others. I am already trying to help out a little by finding people on instagram and directing them to AFWM! I feel like every little things reminds me of him. Songs on the radio, my ink stained right hand, the package the ink came in had this HUGE A3 on it and that is his rank, and even this show I watched this morning, this couple reunited after a long time of not seeing each other were playing the card game WAR. I had never played that game before. When we were waiting on Monday at Meps, Ryan showed me how to play. It was fun for like the first 30 minutes, but after a while we stopped and relaxed on a couch and watched a movie and then of course of only a few minutes of enjoying his closeness he gets called to swear in. I am so happy that I got to stay there the whole morning and afternoon with him. I am definitely thankful that I decided to not bring Donnie. I am so lucky my little sister watched him for us. She comes to my rescue a lot! It sounds like my little man knows I am talking about him and it sounds like he is waking up. Here's to a great day! I really hope I get a call tomorrow. If not at least this first week is almost over!

Our last picture of 2013. Right before he stepped on the bus.

weird night.

Trying to stay so positive right now. Its really hard. Donnie and I dropped off Ryan at a hotel and then he goes to MEPS (Military Entrance Processing Station) early tomorrow morning. I will see him swear in and then he goes by bus to San Antonio for Air Force basic training for 8 and a half weeks. I think the hardest part tonight has been Donnie saying, "Daddy?" and seeing Ryan's picture and asking for daddy. We made a small video of Ryan telling Donnie goodnight and he loves him. I feel like its not going to be a long time, but for the short time it will be a little rough. Especially at night and when Donnie asks for him. I know in the end it will all be worth it. I am so proud of the man my husband has become. We met when we were 16 years old and I have been there to see him become such a great man. I can not wait to see him graduate! I am just so proud to call him my husband. I really hope these 8 and a half weeks go by so fast! I am excited for tomorrow. Right now I think I just need some sleep because I will probably be waiting around for a few hours to see him swear in and then a few more hours to say goodbye.

Wow 2013 is almost over

I have been thinking about starting a blog for some time and it turns out I already had one. I titled it Imitation of a funny girl, I'm not to sure what that means lol. The reason I have been wanting to start a blog is because of all the changes happening lately. I recently stopped working for Bank of America and am now a stay at home mom. My husband Ryan leaves for basic training in the Air Force on Monday. He will be gone for about two months. We will only talk on the phone a few times, but we can write letters. I am not excited about not seeing him every day, but I am excited for this new chapter in our lives. After basic training in San Antonio, he will goto Sheppard Air Force base in Wichita Falls, Tx. He will be there for at least 45 days. After that we will get stationed some where. It could literally be anywhere.

This is my little family. I am such a proud momma and wife. My husband for 2 years and our 19 month old son Donnie. That picture was taken at Medieval Times in Dallas. We went with my in-laws and sister in law, her husband and my niece. My in laws treated us all to it, it was so great! The kids really had a blast! Even though Donnie was still not feeling 100% I could tell he still liked it! He is still getting over some congestion. Thankfully he only had a high fever for a day. It is definitely scary when your baby gets sick. I can not believe Christmas is tomorrow. I am so glad I finished all my Christmas shopping early this year. I really wanted to take Donnie for a picture with Santa but when we went to NorthPark the other day the wait time was crazy. All the people were waiting in a long time and looked miserable. I did not want to put Donnie though that.  I will just have to make up for it but taking tons of festive pictures tomorrow. Donnie has been taking a nap for hours. I suppose its good for him to get a lot of rest to overcome his sickness. I suppose I will start dinner. Tonight we are eating tacos. Grass fed sirloin beef, all organic veggies, Ezekiel sprouted tortillas and Ryan is making is Czech salsa with all organic ingredients.  YUMMY!

Today is what?

Keeping a written journal these days seems outdated. Outdated has become apart of my everyday vocabulary. That is what house hunting will do to a person. I am going like everyone knows me. HAH I'm speaking like anyone is reading! Well for those of you that care:

My name is Alyssa Nichole Zmolek. Maiden name is Torres. I am 22 years old, from Mesquite, Texas. I currently live in Lewisville, Texas with my husband and weenie dog Duckie. Ryan, my husband is wonderful. I am thankful everyday that we met each other. As of yesterday we have been married one year, and in September we will be together for seven years! I never thought I would ever be able to say that. I should be done with college by now, but it has been almost a year since I stopped going. After my step-father died I felt as though I was wasting my time because I did not know what I wanted to do when I grew up . I realized I needed to live out my life for myself and do what made me happy. My husband began his road to become a Firefighter/EMT and I must say he is doing so wonderfully. I have been working full time and have recently gotten a promotion. My job is alright, but I am not sure if it is something I want forever. I want to eventually go back to school and get my bachelors and eventually masters, but I do not want to waste time and money putting my life on hold for something I am not sure of. Ryan and I have recently decided on starting our family. The only problem is, me. I need to lose more weight before I get pregnant. That is such a struggle. I have been told if I get off the pill that it will be easier to lose weight and I recently did that, so I hope if I keep up my healthy eating habits and workout routine I can see better results soon. Well besides the worries of weight, we are wanting to get a house by November. The house hunting is going better than I thought it would. Our Realtor is very nice and really helpful. We have been looking are pre-owned houses, but now are considering newly constructed homes, the only problem is that they are farther north than we expected. I suppose you can't have your cake and eat it too.

Well I suppose I should clean this apartment now and maybe go for a workout at the gym.
Until next time.