When I feel a glimmer of sadness start to find its way through my body and try to escape my eyes, I think of this sweet face looking up at me. Our son. With his infections giggles, temper tantrums, curiosities and braveness, he is my reason to look forward to each day. I knew the day would come when my husband would be a whole world away, but it still breaks my heart at times. I am relieved he is there and safe and sound. I love the very few times a day we get to text and talk. Even if its for a few minutes, to hear his voice, just makes it better. I do not regret standing by his decision to join. He has never talked about a "job" the way he does now. He is exploring new places and feels like his works actually means something. Even though we can't be together everyday I am grateful I get to spend so much time with Donnie. Sometimes it can be overwhelming, but I am extremely thankful for my family! Today I decided to make my bed. Although I don't do it everyday, today I feel a sense of accomplishment. Now I can face the whole day with this positive feeling inside. I do not know what today will bring. Hopefully I can get a workout in, hopefully I can laugh a lot, hopefully Donnie won't throw a tantrum (JUST KIDDING LOL), but I am hopeful. All I can have is hope. Hope that today will be a good day or just knowing that I at least tried to have a positive outlook from the get go. Time to get outside and enjoy this gorgeous sunny day in Texas.
